One for the road
Mrs James…
I actually really needed to read this right now.
So it has been quite some time since I’ve used tumblr. And I just changed my name. I can’t even remember what it was before. Quite honestly it doesn’t even matter because I really need to get this off my chest and for anyone who reads this it’d be lovely for a response just to know someone is there.
Are my chances ruined for being sick the next morning sleeping with someone? Mind you, this guy was someone I had met when I was around 13. We were in a musical together and he was my first crush. So, 10+ we had an amazing night reconnecting which led to more. But in the early morning I got really sick. I thought I was hungover, but it didn’t feel right. I put two and two together and decided it was that combined with a migraine (I get really sick with migraines) Anyway, the next morning was not a nice morning at all. I was throwing up and he had to leave for work and it was just awful. I texted him today to apologize and he said “don’t even worry about it” but I still can’t stop thinking about it. I just feel like he’ll want nothing to do with me now.
summer storms / crossfield, alberta
Playing the piano for hours late at night after being sick for a week is truly refreshing. I wish it were something I could do every night (not the being sick part). What is holding me back from playing music every night? I might not have the opportunity to play a grand piano in a house by myself, but I have my keyboard and headphones. I need the motivation again. Time to get strong, determined and focused. Not just on music, but other aspects in life as well.
Oh, and I know there are better way to get this feeling rather than getting over illness.
sometimes i feel i look good until i see myself in a mirror and
This is my sister.
this is what I have to deal with
god stacey i’m trying to be cool on the internet go away
Oh to hear the thoughts you think